I am sorry Fifty. It was a blessing that your sister found Christ before she died, leaving this life of sorrows for everlasting paradise.
Were you molested as well?
I haven’t been through this type or intense trauma , but have lost parents, friends and love ones, battled depression a few times , had difficulties with a child and lost a great job years ago.
I always try to count my blessings, write down all the things I have to be thankful for. It always greatly outweighs the few negative things in my life. Think positive, help others, volunteer, because there are so many others that are much worse off or in much more difficult situations.
Confide in a close friend, seek counseling, replace worry with worship and service, read, walk, do things that give you pleasure and satisfaction.
But most of all, turn it over to God. Let him fight your battles, because he can do miraculous works.