Thanks Tora, greatly appreciated.
Funny, there's so much I don't share here (and it would require volumes due to all of the info directly or indirectly related to my condition) but again, there are blessings that would go unseen if not for some doors closing. Mostly I try to share positivity & light when discussing my situation because it's usually how I feel, especially when talking about my battle with cancer. Cancer don't scare me. My God has that covered!
However, I feel a little more serious today and it's not necessarily about me.
One thing that has come up as a positive result of stopping the trial now, as opposed to 3 months from now, is our moving from FL. I won't go into all of the reasons we NEED to move but the trial was going to keep us here until October and then we would still have to prepare to move (which is extra difficult in my condition) and we want to get out of here much sooner. However, since we discovered the trial ain't working, we are now able to focus on getting ready to move and hope to be out of FL and amongst our family in TN before the fall. Being around our family during times of trouble (especially if I DON'T have much longer on this earth) just gives me a better piece of mind. I want....no I NEED.... to know I'm leaving this earth with my family taken care of. Yes, it's been on my mind a bit lately, naturally. I generally keep it to myself as I'm not worried about myself at all. .....not one bit. But with everything going on today, the husband and father in me worries a great deal. I pray continuously for strength to trust in Him but I am a frail human after all. But again, I don't think I have more than a handful of years left (if that) and I want to feel my wife & girls are with family and in good hands after I'm gone.
I know some here think I'm crazy and that's okay, but prophecies of The Bible are coming to life before our eyes and as believers we want to be surrounded by more like-minded people. ....and I'm not just talking about U.S. unrest either, but other world events that non-believers, unfortunately, don't even think twice about....or see it but don't believe it anyway due to the veil being pulled over their eyes. I don't mean that to be insulting. Actually I say it in all kindness as I truly love & care for each one of you. Even those who who don't like or respect me. That's one reason you see me writing more Christian related posts over the last few months (hey, IMO there ain't gonna be any football to discuss anyway....). I really hope to reach people and bear fruit for Our Lord before it's too late.
I'm sorry, I know this is a much heavier post than normal from me but I feel convicted to be more serious today. And this isn't about politics but rather about faith. I hope I'm wrong, but I sense serious things coming....and pretty soon. Christians can take heart and find joy in that knowledge but I obviously feel concern for non-Christian friends & acquaintances who eventually might see the light when it's too late.
Again, I realize I'm heavy handed today, but sometimes life ain't all sunshine & rainbows. Just feeling a little serious today with all we have to plan and do.
God bless my friends! I pray for you all!